OnikisuWasuremono

Hey, sorry for coming back only to fall off a cliff. I started out good, but I guess the best description was my heart got broken.

Now, I'm not one to vent my feelings to everyone, but it isn't like I'm popular xD

Well, for the whole story, you have to understand that this woman...was nothing like I'd ever expected. Every single time I talked to her, I found new reasons to love her. I've had a picture in my head, and idea of my perfect woman. Not only did she fit the idea, but then she went and improved it. Every time I thought about her, I could only smile. My body would warm and colors became sharper. This sounds like me blowing things out of proportion, but I'd never felt love like this before. I've had girlfriends before, the exact number? Three. Kaitlin, Sarah, and then Maria. I didn't love the first two, but there was a love for Maria. This love with Charisma though? The love with Maria was but a pale flame.

I can think of few things I wouldn't give up for her...but....it seems my love wasn't enough. We are apart now, because, to better her life....she is working alot. The way we broke up, is that she was too busy to give me her attention. I'm hurt, and my love for her is so strong that I can't stop it.

 I'm crying and I hurt of course, but I have to be okay. So I'm okay. The worst part, is that when you need someone to hold close, the reason is because you no longer have that person.

So last bit of information, I'm here...but I'm hurting. Hello again DeviantArt, I love you too <3

Well, I've been practicing my writing a bit elsewhere about the interwebs and polishing it up a bit. So now I have a proposition.

Want a story written? Got an idea you want converted to text? Character description? Back-story? Something as simple as a peer-review? 

Message me. {For problems with bustin' ghosts. Call Ghostbusters and let them handle all of the spooky ghosties.}

Poetry is...not really open for requests. I only write ANYTHING on inspiration, and lately I haven't had any. Kind of saddening, but that is how it is. I'll be keeping out my artistic feelers for more strokes of {self-proclaimed} genius. Until then, I'm open to your desires....as long as there aren't some overly weird stuff. That is for another time and place.

Well, in a bold move of boldness completely unrelated to my success in karaoke where I was fondly regarded on my singing of American Pie. I entered a poetry contest! The name constantly evades me, but I entered my poem, Watchman......

And I'm a semi-finalist! Whoo! So, that knocks off the list one of my life dreams since all semi-finalists get their entry in a book! It has been my dream to get some of my poetry published. BAM! Done. Now to get more of it <.< lol Anyways, just thought I'd flex my metaphorical muscles while I write the next chapter of The Whisper's Tale!

Ouch. Just. Ouch. I finally got my muse, my new compute, my plot diagram, and everything else I needed to continue my novel attempt...only to realize I left it of in a TERRIBLE way. Seriously, I'm sorry. That, jeez, there is no excuse for that. I counted so many things that made that horrible excuse for a few paragraphs unbearable to read. I must've been angry at someone to have even posted that.

Well, putting that behind me, (Sorry again btw. Really.) I'm rewriting 10! Or should I say actually writing it. Should be up sometime this week, and I submitted Watchman to a poetry contest in NY so, fingers crossed!

In something entirely different, I'm working on leather now! So as soon as I stop flailing about and actually get good at it, I'll post some stuff here!

I'm not sure if you peoples who visit my page have ever heard of shout it out, but you can see an example of one in my gallery. I just want to say that I think it's an awesome idea and ~Pie-Master-Pru is awesome for doing it first. So you all should try doing one since they are easy skill wise and only hard emotional/mental wise.